TH3Y TR13D T0 BVRY VS, TH3Y...

"they tried to bury us... they

didn't know we were seeds" thoughts

as I wander Earth's surface

T3CHN0L0GY D1STR4CTS VS...

technology distracts us

from how disconnected we've

become from actual Earth

TH3 P0W3R 0F L0VNG3 1S 4...

the Power of Lounge is a

most simple philosophy -

you already got it all

TH3 GL0R10VS P4T1N4...

the glorious patina

of having gotten beat down

slowly over the decades

4TT3MPT1NG T0 B3 W33D-L1K3...

attempting to be weed-like,

blossoming despite efforts

to impede my existence

SONG OF THE DAY: 1 Down, 3 To Go

Much love to all genres and songs that defy the 3-minute rule, an antiquated relic of radio airplay rules. Fuck the music industry. Fuck everything actually. Anything that becomes an industry has embraced listening to some asshole explain shit in a fucked up way that goes against whatever inspirational nonsense caused the thing to exist in the first place. Death to all industries.

SONG OF THE DAY: Until Then

Malcolm X just had a birthday… well obviously he didn’t have it, because he was assassinated a long time back, and I often think about how one of America’s greatest most recent philosopher/thinker/activists was taken from us. He was only 39 at the time of his shooting, and had experienced such rapid political and philosophical growth in his adult years. His pilgrimage to Mecca and visit to Africa had been a pretty impactful period on expanding his outlook as well, and that had only happened in the year before his death. It’s also noteworthy because African nations had just begun to gain independence from colonial rule in that same decade. His influence likely would have extended well beyond just African-American culture, or even just African diasporic culture. It all seems so relevant too because we’ve got the same fucking bullshit going on in America, like we’ve been stuck in this cultural quagmire we can’t escape because nobody’s tried to actually fix any of it. The oft-quoted clip from Malcolm talks about healing, and how healing involves pulling the knife out of someone’s back, and letting them heal the wound, when America hasn’t even acknowledged it put the knife in people, nor pulled it out.

But also always relevant to the discussion of Malcolm, and his assassination, is the divisive techniques of the powerful. That famous pic of Malcolm peeping out the window holding an M1 was done not in reference to the FBI or CIA, but the threat on his life that was presented by Elijah Muhammad and the Nation of Islam. Part of Louis Farrakhan’s ascent to power was built off his dedicated resistance to Malcolm. Of course there was quite a bit of collusion between intelligence agencies and police groups back then to fuck up black activists, but if you go pulling the threads of FBI involvement in the Nation of Islam/Malcolm X feud, and even sort of distant preservation of the Nation of Islam, shit gets murky (as all conspiracies do).

Mostly though, I just lament the fact I re-read Malcolm X speeches or essays fairly regularly, most of which composed during the last decade or so of his life. And he never even made 40. Imagining what he could’ve accomplished had he been allowed to continue to grow and develop is a depressing stream of thought. Lots of times, in our American-centric perspective, we tend to lump Malcolm and Martin Luther King Jr. together, but I think about Malcolm with Patrice Lumumba, the brilliant Congolese pan-Africanist, who also was assassinated in 1961. Both these men were not just activists visibly resisting world systems in place, but they were people who had shown rapid growth as thinkers, both of which cut short before they made 40. And definitely relevant as we get into the last stretch of a Presidential Election where two bumbling old ass white dudes compete to not fuck up the worst and become the alleged leader of the alleged free world for another four years, or more. Lolol, anybody who thinks this world system that’s still in place is a good and beneficial one is a goddamn fool.

Anyways, check out this track by Marcel P. Black, conscious Baton Rouge rapper. Sometimes I forget to attach the prose to the song, but figured I’d better today, because Marcel’s a good dude, and he’s got a bandcamp, so you can support dude directly, which is important since nobody can tour or do shows currently.

TH3 SP4C3 1 F1ND MYS3LF...

the spaces I find myself

most at peace tends to be those

forgotten by mainstream thought

MY D3ST1N4T10N R3M41NS...

my destination remains

unknown - sometimes I use maps,

other times intuition

SONG OF THE DAY: Secrets and Escapes

There’s a few nice spots I’ve found or people have shared with me that are perfect monasteries of late capitalist decline – mixtures of industrial decline, graffiti, and survival-based existence where the houseless find homes where society’s all-knowing all-judging eyes leave them the fuck alone. I try not to share these spaces with too many people, especially not online. Sharing shit online is essentially snitching, maybe not automatically to the police but definitely to people who don’t understand or respect the codes of illegal or barely legal existence. Just because places exist like this, and people go there, doesn’t mean you automatically should.

I think about this a lot with regards to the internet, how all this information is just right there for anyone to have a superficial knowledge about everything on earth (that’s been exposed to the internet). There’s no guidance, no teacher to say, “Well yes, it’s an old factory that’s been abandoned for decades, but some people are living in there too so don’t just roll up in there loud as fuck, breaking bottles and shit.”

Quarantine times have shown that electronic escapes don’t satisfy the same physiological urges that physical escapes do. I’ve been trying to walk more, like two hundred miles a day, and had posted a bunch of haiku to an Instagram story one time, but it drained the battery on my shitty old iPhone, and it died halfway through so that I had to finish it when I got home, which was kind of stupid. So I’ve been carrying notecards in my pocket instead, and making stories of tanka that way. The battery never dies. It has reminded me that electronic escapes are not necessarily escapes but re-routes where we are avoiding the path we probably should’ve been taking in the first place.

It’s such a blessing on a long ass meandering pilgrimage somewhere or another to stumble upon some sort of abandoned place that you didn’t know about, that nobody told you about, enter it, and get to know it. Every place has these fucked up accumulations of experience that stain it, positively and negatively. I was in one recently, in pretty good shape actually, and there were these weird prayer art things in one section, normal graffiti in other, and I went to a back corner of one outbuilding in this complex and left a couple dirtgod haiku scribbles as well. These have become my favorite poems I write, scattered out in the world, maybe not seen by anybody ever, or only seen by a few humans who could give a shit less. I wrestle at times with whether or not I’m a “real” poet or “real” artist or writer. I got a poem published earlier this year, even though I’m horrible at trying to publish anything, basically because a co-conspirator of the illegitimate artz specifically requested I send something. So I did. It was cool, I guess, to send out links on various social medias about “hey I got a poem published” and a bunch of people I don’t really know clicked little hearts to acknowledge they saw the post, most of them likely without even clicking the link to see the actual poem. I know without a doubt that even if it’s only nine people over the next two years, every person who sees those dirtgod haiku scribbles in that far corner of the forge outbuilding in the abandoned factory complex, each one of them will actually see that haiku. Without a doubt. No having to follow links to other spaces, or tapping a symbol to give me false data suggesting there’s a higher likelihood they saw it. Every person who goes in that room will actually have seen it. That’s way more real, whether I can know it happened or not. In fact, despite human’s consisted insistence we still have scientific dominion over the Earth, I’d say people can never know what’s ultimately real. Life gets a whole lot easier when you accept that shit.

4TT3MPT1NG T0 B3 W33D-L1K3...

attempting to be weed-like,

sowing myself in corners

lacking militant eyeballs

SONG OF THE DAY: Sky Turned Cry

Humans are highly melodramatic animals, bless-cursed with synapses sparks that suggest there is purpose to existence beyond simply existing. Because of this, humans will lament the smashing together of their broken systems, which have long been failing them in any deep or meaningful sense, and indulge worried proclamations of end times, which are not even true callings of an observed event on the horizon, but just the cries of child creatures hoping to scare away their own fears in the dark of what they cannot comprehend. These are not human systems of existence breaking apart, but human systems of comfort, which not everybody even has anyways. American prosperity got a better view of the world by stepping a jackboot on the throat of the global South, which has continued to this day. Anti-everything activists make their social media calls to arms and plot their secretive signal conspiracies on handheld computers full of conflict minerals, exploited labor, and innate material privilege. Nothing is ending. The something you think needs fixing never existed in the first place, beyond the schoolbook lessons sown into your young fertile minds anywhere on the planet from the most tender and pliable age.

I have helped procreate three children, the oldest of which I remember wondering if it as appropriate or not to watch George Bush the Younger give televised justifications for wars on the global South after Hulk Hogan kicked over the towers on 9/11, when he joined the New World Order for good (but bad), while they were just a toddler. Back then, they were she, because pronouns were binary and we hadn’t all been distracted by a google of digital streams to confuse our own innate stream of consciousness. The younger two of my offspring have lived in a confusing and unsettling time. A thing I always tell them (once they are old enough to handle this, and I don’t think I’ve said it to the youngest yet, who is only 12 still) is that even if we have population cataclysm, and 80% of humans die off in a decade, that’s still a billion people on this planet. People will keep walking into the future, stubbornly, and piecing together new shelter from the rubble, and slowly rebuilding that shelter into something comfortable, and repeating the same settled patterns humans have done ever since they stopped wandering and planted corn in abnormal rows.

“Why not you?” I ask my children, because fuck it, somebody has to live through tomorrow. I’ll do my best to trudge into as much future as I can, but my knees and ankles ache more than they used to, and if it’s too cold and damp, I get a limp to my right hip a little bit, like god has slapped a metaphysical ankle monitor on me to keep me from running away too far too fast. That’s how age does. But fuck it, I can stubbornly walk more miles than most hominid creatures half my age too tethered to rapidly deteriorating notions of home, which are starting to have those diminishing returns of empire’s that are still trying to ride the ripples of splashes from previous eras. The names given to the land I live on might change – no government is eternal, and fuck it, I might even have a handful of aliases to go by myself, depending on the circumstance, but the end ain’t fucking here yet. Not today, not in November, not in the next decade, never. Time is bullshit – just those same ripples of empire trying to force order and productivity and industrial mindset onto once natural human beings. Even if I die, it’s not the end, so fuck it… I’m gonna keep walking.

N0TH1NG 1S P3RM4N3NT; Y0V...

nothing is permanent; you

don't have to go anywhere

to start fresh; change is coming

WH3N D1GG1NG F0R M34N1NG, Y0V'LL...

when digging for meaning, you'll

always find proofs; even fools

know their truths as ultimate

L1F3 G03S 0N; WH3TH3R HVM4NS...

life goes on; whether humans

remain part of that or not

ain't gonna stop the world's spin

M4K3 Y0VR M4RK H0W3V3R Y0V...

make your mark however you

can in this industrial

wasteland we've manufactured

N0TH1NG'S P3RM4N3NT, 4NY...

nothing's permanent; any

delusions otherwise are

only going to vex you

PR3V10VS C0NTR1BVT10NS...

previous contributions

fade away, covered over,

buffed, or kept with respect

34CH G3N3R4T10N 4DDS FR3SH...

each generation adds fresh

balance to our collective

human chemistry on Earth

SL0W D3C4Y 0F TH3 D3C4D3S...

slow decay of the decades

strains the gaps; but old human

growth was thicker, more lasting

3T3RN4L N3WN3SS C4N'T B3...

eternal newness can't be

sustained; return to simpler

ways (with much less distraction)

SONG OF THE DAY: All That I Got Is You

One of the all-time greatest ad-libs on a hip hop track is Ghost saying “word up mommy, I love you” at the end of this song. That shit always kills me. I love, when talking to unsuspecting bougie crowds at one of my haiku slams, to say, “I think the greatest living American poet is Dennis Coles. Have any of you seen Dennis Coles’ work?” And mostly people will be like, “wtf?” for a second and I’ll go, “He publishes poetry under the pseudonym Ghostface Killah,” and then they laugh, because they think I’m joking, BUT I’M NOT FUCKING JOKING GODDAMMIT.

SONG OF THE DAY: Northampton's Child

Haven’t been writing as much good quality nonsense gibberish lately because, well, these are strange and terrible times and I have been overcome with dark thoughts of doom. Not fun doom, like walking along train tracks in the moonlight and scribbling barely clever phrases in oil bar, but boring doom, like falling asleep on your secondhand ikea futon in a basement apartment while halfway paying attention to Justified, because you felt like streaming something for a few days, to feel some sense of accomplishment, and you figured fuck it, you’d try this bullshit rural noir show again. I mean how strange and terrible a time is that? I’m willingly watching Justified, and pretending it’s not crap. You know how much of my actual life experience I have to suspend to engage in even that much tolerance? And it’s all so predictable.

This is what I hate about this current era of doom, this technological dystopia we currently find ourselves in, with fascism openly taking the reins of all institutions to usher in a bold new era of Freedom™ brand freedom where you either pull out that MasterCard debit for liberty at the most free chain stores possible, or you can fuck right off… It’s all just so boring, and there’s no torchlit wrestling fights to the death with Ox Baker or giant cockroaches or really great modified late model cars that shoot fireworks everywhere. It’s just laying around on secondhand futons streaming dumb shit waiting to get evicted from your job and rented home by debt collectors eventually as the pyramid scam cuts you off too, and then live underneath a tarp by the creek hoping all you panhandle is dollar bills and not death.

I am trying to channel my mundane doomed feelings into body improvements though. I pulled out the old stick and poke rig to put BORN TOO LOOSE on my leg last night. It’s the little victories that help us survive these dark times.

3V3N 1N TH3 SH4RDS 0F 0VR...

even in the shards of our

broken society, there's

better tomorrow visions

1NN0V4T10N 4R1S3S...

innovation arises

out of necessity - that

means survival is a must

TH3 WR3TCH3D 0F TH3 34RTH...

the wretched of the earth

will never be first, but those

who count might be the problem

4ND Y3T S0M3H0W WH4T H34LS VS...

and yet somehow what heals us

blossoms in our forgotten

corners - that's nature's magic

1F 1T 41N'T PR0F1T4BL3...

if it ain't profitable,

it might not get remembered;

low water marks got washed out

0VR R3C0RD3D H1ST0RY'S...

our recorded history's

only part of the story...

many tales don't get written

SONG OF THE DAY: Mawwal

I’ll be honest… really hoping that in the next decade of my life I move far deeper into cultivating an Omar Souleyman-level æsthetic. Shit, he’s only about 8 years older than me, and has been a singer and farmer most his adult life, having released over 500 albums under his name, many of which are just ones he made at weddings and gave to the married couple, but then got bootlegged and sold at music kiosks throughout the Arabian Peninsula. His rise in international notoriety has coincided with him living in exile in Turkey since 2011 as his native Syria has been in a state of conflict, specifically his home of Tell Tamer aka Tal Tamr aka “the hill of dates”. I almost bought 11 lbs of dates on ebay in the middle of the night the other evening, because fuck man, dates are some wonderful shit, especially when you haven’t eaten all day, whether fasting or by accident, and you pop one in your mouth and it’s an explosion of natural sweetness. Globalism as a means for corporate sterilization of the Earth, where everybody anywhere can eat a fucking piece of shit Big Mac, that’s some gross shit. But the ability to appreciate things outside your local microcosmic existence, for me as a rural southerner by birth, so that I can love on some dates and listen to Omar Souleyman, I appreciate that at least. But the globalism of the powerful is about business, not culture, and that’s why you got dumbasses out here being engineered by the interent to protest for re-opening normal ass basic ass boring as fuck businesses and acting like that’s an act of freedom or liberation. Americans are so goddamned lost. We buy iPhone cases at kiosks in nearly abandoned malls as opposed to wedding singer mixtapes at kiosks in open air clusterfucks of humanity booming with life (and business). Business without culture will always die, and the further we get into our culture of America just being consuming shit, the easier it will be for it all to just turn into rubble. Fuck it. I can’t wait to stack rubble into a mixtape kiosk, tarp stretched over top for shade, nice pallet table, my overstock limited but stored in three milk crates easily hauled on my old Corolla chassis pulled by goats. Shit’s gonna be dope. I hope to have really nice chrome wheels on my goat-pulled Corolla chassis wagon too. The future’s gonna be great, despite what anybody tries to make you worry. You just gotta envision that good shit.

SONG OF THE DAY: Bill Collector

More “fuck bills” anthems and less faux posturing over wealth that doesn’t exist, please... especially considering the current economic collapse happening. Also, STOP TALKING INTO STACKS OF MONEY YOU RENTED! Money makes a horrible phone. They track money's movement so easily.

K33P M0V1NG F0RW4RD 1 T3LL...

"keep moving forward" I tell

myself, just stumbling along,

making it up as I go

SONG OF THE DAY: Baghdad Is Not Your's

Sometimes I fantasize about the longest possible road trip that exists on this Earth, which I guess might be from somewhere in southern Africa, up through the Middle East, into Asia maybe, although it might be nice to swing through Europe on a loop, in fact fuck it, let's start in southern Africa, up through west Africa, then back east towards Mecca then up into Asia, but swerve back left through Europe on the lower end of things until you get into Spain good, then back up towards the upper part of the main continent and back over into Russia, far into Asia, then down to southeast Asia, and then fuck it, let's drive back to the Middle East and fuck that reminds me of how good that goat curry was with the cabbage at that one spot somewhere in Nigeria after we passed Lagos but before we got Ghana (I think). We should go back there again, but let's go a different way this time. Until I die, running various Volkswagen bugs and Toyota pick-ups to death along the way, which only means I trade them to some wily local shade tree mechanic who continues to resurrect it, because a comfortable death is not even close to a survival death. A survival death outlives a thousand comfortable deaths. History has proven that many times over.

SONG OF THE DAY: Things Fall Apart

Nothing new about what's going on in America, although I guess everything feels magnified because we've got the digital glass focusing the sunshine of our worries into fire beam laser to burn through our hope. Things been falling apart ever since somebody had the demented ideas to stack all this shit up in a particular order and expect it to remain that way. One thing western civilization never seems to grasp is our utopian delusions are Sisyphean bulshit - always have been and always will. We're not gonna have no floating robot clouds save the environment because the type of brain that thinks of floating robot clouds is what's wrong with the environment. We're not gonna save the economy by having a bunch of about-to-break people get cut off of government support and forced back into the lord of the flies hand-to-mouth world of work. But because of the fallacy of human progress, I'd like to just remind you all to not do shit. Don't do a fuckin' thing. In fact, I was about to go do some shit (spraypaint some old album covers at my girlfriend's compound) but instead I might just go sit outside with one Adidas slide on, the other one left inside, fuck it, and just walk two doors down to the cinderblock entrance to the black pentecostal church, and just sit on their steps, one slide on, one missing. But I might not even do that if some other not doing shit possibilities raise up before I get there. We're culturally inclined to overlook all these wonderful blossoms of not doing shit to start trying to get some shit done. Ain't shit to get done out here. Eat, sleep, fuck - fill the gaps with self-discovered artistic practices to keep yourself sane-ish.

F33L1NG M0R3 4ND M0R3 L1K3 4...

feeling more and more like a

manipulated number

than free will human being

SONG OF THE DAY: H.O.O.D.

Nothing to say today, just an excuse to use ÆSTHETIC with the dope ass dipthong, which of course now has been ruined forever by Elon Musk and Grimes. Elon Musk disturbs me because he looks like a wax museum figure brought to life by robotics. Also Pops Musk ran an African mine, that’s how Elon is wealthy enough to be so goddamned progressive and know how to not only fix the fucking Earth but outer space as well. Fuck him. Now I can’t even keep using ÆSTHETIC without thinking I’m a fuckin’ Tesla truck ad. GUESS WHAT ELON MUSK? DESERT GUERRILLA FREEDOM FIGHTER TERRORISTS WILL NEVER STRAP ANTI AIRCRAFT GUNS TO YOUR PIECE OF SHIT TRUCK. And to me, honestly, that is the ultimate sign of a truck’s authenticity.

TH1N M4RG1NS B3TW33N L1F3 4ND...

thin margins between life and

death - even thinner living

further out on the margins

1NDVSTR10VS N4TVR3 1S...

industrious nature is

a programmed brain thinking; I'm

gonna sit right here all day

N4TVR3 CH0PS 4ND SCR3WS 4 FR3SH...

nature chops and screws a fresh

remix of life each spring - I

try to be more like redbuds

V3SS3LS 0F 3SC4P3 0FT3N...

vessels of escape often

abandoned along our path,

never having got nowhere

R3M1ND3RS TH4T SVFF3R1NG...

reminders that suffering

is part of being human -

we're good at building prisons

PR1M0RD14L TR4D1T10N...

primordial tradition

of million step pilgrimage

to realize evolution